For me this week has been about catching my breath, or maybe just taking in a deep one. I was prepared for a longer infertility ride. One that might have included a baby or two. A ride I was most likely going to be on for two more cycles, possibly years apart.
Then ride just ended so suddenly. And although I am extremely grateful it wasn't prolonged unnecessarily, I do feel a touch of whiplash and a huge hormone dump happing. Just like that we are done.
I have been so happy that I wrote about this last leg of our infertility journey. Out of this I have just received so much encouragement from all your comments. Even some of you sent cards that were all composed so beautifully that I couldn't get through them without welling-up. Stef even came over on Tuesday after the test to watch my kids for a few hours, and made my family dinner. And I cried with her. Because we have had so much fun having babies together.
But for me the most delightful surprise was a note that came under my bedroom door Saturday night. It read:
My Love,I wanted you to know how honored I am to be your husband. I am so proud of the woman you are, the mother you have become and the friend you've always been. I wanted you to know how thankful I am also that you have been willing to go through such strife to bring our beautiful children in to this world. You have done it with courage and class second to none. I wanted to treat you to a day of relaxation and fun in honor of your journey of motherhood. You are so loved! Thank you for being such a selfless champion for our family.Love,Matt
As you can imagine I was beaming after reading this. It then it went on to explain in detail how he was taking me away for the weekend to Portland for spa treatments and shopping.
We just got back and totally partied like rock stars. (Minus the drugs, and thrashing of our hotel room.) We stayed up until like 11 pm and slept in till like 7:45 am. It was CRAZY. I also bought a pair of ridiculously expensive jeans. I will take to my grave how much I spent on them but know that they give my bottom the appearance of firmness and my legs the illusion that they never stop. They just happen to be less money than plastic surgery so I purchased them!
This weekend was about Matt and I taking stock into the goodness of God's plan that unfolded fully for us this week. My sincere thanks for everyone who followed my Maybe Baby story.
13 comments:
I love this post, Becca. I love your honesty. I love the fact that you were whisked away to Portland to be pampered with spa treatments and expensive jeans. I'm glad to hear you've had time to slow down and breathe...I've been thinking about you so much.
(BTW, right now Matt is all Jon's... as they sit side by side in a theater watching a movie I care not to name.)
You deserve the best Becca and I'm so glad you had a wonderful weekend away with your husband! Saw the picture of your new haircut and its adorable! Your children are beautiful, I love the picture.
Sounds like you have an amazing husband... I am grateful that you guys were able to get away and enjoy the closure of one chapter... and enjoy the blessing of the family that you have. I couldn't think of a more perfect way to let it all go.
Matt is one of a kind. He always made me smile. There are fewer and fewer of those types around. Glad you got one!! (and glad I have one too!)
He is a keeper!
Your hubby is right and yay for him for making darned sure that you know it. :)
Continued blessings to you...
Matt is goooood! Has he been reading romance novels? I mean really it's nearly unnatural for a man to be that perfect. You deserve the best though!
Awww, Becca. That is just so sweet. Sounds like exactly what you needed. Thanks again so much for sharing your story. You and your family are an amazing testimony of God's love and grace.
What a fun weekend! I have loved following your journey and I am so inspired by your grace. Wish we lived closer.
Becca, you are one of the most amazing women I have ever met. You are gorgeous, loving, selfless, and truly kind to all. You deserve the weekend you just had, and many more (which I am sure Matt will give you in the future!).
I'm SO glad Matt thought to do this and make it all happen! I was sure hoping there would be some sort of celebration for you - YES, he got it!
Can't wait to see the jeans!
Know that there's a sister just a city away that thinks of you often on a daily basis - wishing it had all played out different and praying for you to have God's peace.
Requesting pictures of your fabulous firm rear and endless legs in the new jeans. Soon please...
I was missing Glory Laine today and somehow I stumbled upon this old post. Not sure the date on it...but I think it's been a little over a year (cuz you missed daph's b-day party last year as you were in Portland resting:)
I still wonder if sometimes you are sad. Mostly I think you are surging on with apparent gusto.
Above everyone i hope you know how big last year was for you as a woman, mom and wife. I love you to pieces.
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